A Dream in Two
I live with my mother and my seph father in Riverside County, a small town outside of Temecula. Sometimes it's hard living with them,especially my seph father, who this big Shannen Doherty hater. He tends to remain me of how horrible she is and I hate that. Every insult that flies out of his mouth………I just can’t believe the amount of verbal abuse he does on her.
I have always wanted to live alone, but I can’t. I am hearing impaired…I still want to live by myself…I know I have trouble with money…but I am a responsible person…independent. I don’t need to be dependent on my mother and seph father. I hate being dependent on them. I am 30 years old and it about time I DO what I have always wanted to do.
For 15 years I have always wanted to meet Shannen, Dianna and hopefully publish my biography, “ I Am A Survivor†I know one day it will come true; I just know it in my heart.
Little did I know that my dream or 2(well, maybe 3. I do want to be a writer.) Will come true and I for once can’t wait.
I sat in my room, I am always a quiet and private person and to myself. I have always been like that. My dog, Sadie barked at me for some attention. I lifted her up and put her on my bed. I laughed as I watch her snuggle between my shams that were on the bed. She liked to snuggle against something and she’s always been like that, ever since she was a baby.
I sat back down on the floor and took out my life story. I keep looking at it for a while. I have always wanted to write, since I was young. I loved to read and write. When I was a toddler in the hospital my mother would read to me every night. And when I was little my mom’s aunt used to tell me that I have to read…good thing I listened to her…Because of her, my reading became my passion as well as writing. With the story in my hand I walked to the couch that’s in my loft, I sat for a while. I wish I can be in Hollywood and work as a writer. I knew it would never happen. Me, a low learning disability, IQ of NOTHING, I am stupid, gullible…Even the president of the US don’t want me around…. My mother and seph father are right, I could never amount to anything…so why bother? I wanted to be an actress, no I was stupid, I wanted to take writing class, no its to hard; which it’s a hint for me, that I was stupid and wouldn’t understand, I want to meet Shannen and my parents HATES her. Meanwhile, my other parents, my father and seph mother, they are proud of me. And for that I am so glad. My brother, my sisters, my brother in law, my 2 friends who knew about Dianna, The website and Shannen: they known since October of 2003. For my mother and seph father, they are NOT proud of me…are they proud that I have a website on her? Are they proud that after 14 years I finally have my idol in my life? Are they proud that I overcame my disability? Are they proud I have a friends like Lindsay, Haylie, Kate, Matt and Dianna that respect me for who I am and if they met me in real life they wouldn’t judge me? Seeing as what happened with Kerry Vance and her father, I would think they would accept Dianna as part of my life. I wish they respected my loyalty against Shannen. It’s sad that I can’t talk to my parents about her. I want to be like Haylie, Lindsay, Kate and Dianna; they can talk about Shannen to their parents or talk about her movies and so forth. What about me? NO! Mentioning Shannen is like a bomb going to go off. I hate it! Sometimes I wish I could be like my friends…I crave for it all the time.
I wish I could talk to Dianna. To bad I can’t call her. I could use some help here. Dianna and I became best friend and have been for 3 and half years…we own a website that is dedicated to our role model and a wonderful and talented actress: Shannen Doherty
After I got out of my “ I hate my life.†“ Why can’t I be like them?†Referring to Shannen, my family and my friends. I left Sadie, who was snoring, on my bed. I took a nice hot bath. I needed it…It cleanses me.
After the long soothing bath, I got dressed and went for a walk, a long walk…I normally take my dog, but in this case, I was having my moments where I hated everything around me…I wanted out. Also walking cleanses your mind…if you have a writer’s block, walking helps.
When I returned from my walk the phone rang and I walk into the kitchen to answer it. It was Dianna! She doesn’t call me unless I Okayed her to call me. Was it Shannen? Someone hacked into the site, AGAIN?
Okay, Kris. Relax! You worry a lot. Little did I know Shannen wanted a favor from me? What could that be? As far as I know Dianna and Shannen has discussed it over their phone conversation one day.“ Kris, did Shannen call you?†Dianna asks as I sat on the couch, sipping my water. “ No. Why would she?†I ask her. “ She’s going to call you. Let me know if you calls you, okay.†“ Sure.†I told her. “ What is it about? You got to give me some hint, Di.†I added. I hate suspense. “ No. Trust me, this is good. Very good. I will be on AIM tonight so AIM me, okay.†She told me and we bonded for a few more minutes and we both hung up.
By 7pm, Shannen didn’t call. She told Dianna that she was stuck in a meeting. But I got her PM that she sent me.