Okay so I know this should probably be in the help section but I already have a thread in there which I'm guna update and I really just need more people to see it for some comforting mega quickly. I don't think I've cried so much in like three years!
But If Di or one of the other admins wants to move it they can - i'll understand.
I'd just been getting my hair done and was in a really good happy mood because of that...
BUT, then I got home forgetting I'd left myself signed in on MSN and someone in the year below left me a message saying that my Head of Year died last night from a heart attack.
Man I just didn't know what to do. I didn't know if it was a rumour but then it's not exactly something to joke about.
About 15 minutes later one of my mates signed onto MSN so I told her and she said she already knew but it was from pneumonia. She'd been off sick a while but we all thought it was just stress But atleast it meant that it's not a rumor but I still just don't know what to do.
She was one of my favourite teachers too. I had her for GCSE english and she basically inspired me to actually want to do english at A-level and taught me everything I know about it. She was the kind of person who respected every single one of her students and treated them as young adults - not as school kids. She listened. I always felt like I could trust her with anything and she was just - well an amazing woman. I just can't believe this is true. I can't stop crying and I can't tell anyone because I'm just too shocked right now to even leave my room. I'm going out tonight which we'd planned for a while but I'm so scard to go because I know for a fact I'll drink, I'll cry and I'll cut because I'm so fraked out by this.
I've never lost anyone close to me before and even though we werent exactly that close this has completely hit me and knocked me down. It just doesn't feel real.
R.I.P Eileen. We Love you x.