In need of advice...

[Sarah-Lucy]

i am sorry to here about your friend. time is a healer so please dont be hard on yourself, the way you are feeling is only natural. there is always somebody here on the boards if you need to talk. as for your mum, she is going to be in the best place with qualified professional doctors caring for her. i would try + chat to the doctors before the op to reassure any worries you may have. stay positive + strong for your mum and keep us posted.

[prue411]

1 problem...im really shy around people except or forums cos i just blabber on, anyway, i can hardly even tlk to my closest friends

[Sarah-Lucy]

^ i am shy too so dont you worry. is there someone else that could go with you + ask the doctor stuff to put your mind @ peace? keep us posted

[artemis2]

Honey, PM me,ok?

[kt73]

i've pmed you

[prue411]

Most people have asked me how my friend died so to save you time typing that in PM's she had Cystic Fibrosis.

[annelies]

What's that?

[prue411]

[annelies]

I think I get it. My English is a little problem here.

[magascagni]

look, I know how much to lose a friend hurts. I lost mybest friend not too long ago and I have to tell you, the pain will go away with time...and, intime you will learn to keep the good memories you have, thegood memories you two shared and those memories will pull you through all the crap. The pain you feel will become just a memory. About your mom, again, you have to stay strong,even if you are sick of it and u just want to yell out your pain...Crying is good. DO NOT let anger rule your life because it;s not worth it...it always hurts even more. Your step dad is a jerk and you don't need him, nor your mom but I can't really say anything about that. My relationship with my father is not good at all. And your life, sometimes life feels boring and rutine drowns you but, that is not for real. You have to search within yourself for the beauty of your life, because it is really there...I swear to you is there. Kiddo, you remindme to my self a year ago...I was fourteen...but you are twelve and it makes it even harder. Don't worry, no one has an exiting life at age 12!lol Your life will get better...and ifit doesn't. Make it better...change things...feel good, because that is what life is all about..sometimes we don't apreciate it but, when you look back you go like wow...I bet that in a couple of years you will look back and feel proud of yourself and your strength...
good luck
feel free to PM. PM me and keep me informed. I really care.