Been a long time.
Posted: Wed Aug 04, 2010 6:45 amWow. Can't believe how long it's been since I've been on these forums. Dang. I wonder if any of my friends here even remember me? Yeah, sorry guys for my long absence. Life kinda, got really really bad for me... So, here goes the updates.
My mom got really super psychotic, basically treating me like a uber rebellious dangerous juvenile delinquent, instead of an adult, telling me that she got rid of the internet, but really was lying to me and hiding our internet router and not letting me into her bedroom so I wouldn't find out, so I had to take my laptop to Wi-Fi hotspots just to get online, relying on my battery power for how long I could be on. And that's barely scratching the surface of the tip of the iceberg of the crap she was pulling...
A love triangle formed basically. I had a potential relationship, my first ever, but it proved to be a lie, a waste of time, broken promises and false hope, so I had basically wasted 7 months of my time, ended a friendship, and dealt with stress over that, for nothing. Yeah, I've had a crapton of friendships end...all blaming me for it...when really, none of it was my fault... I had dealt with so much stress last year, god...I had lost at least 10 lbs in less than a year...that's how bad it was. I had dropped a couple pants sizes too, and I was always skinny to begin with, so I did not need to lose weight. Several people told me I looked sickly, and I'm sure I did. I was always so stressed last year...suicidal thoughts were almost always present in my head...
But! I'm still here, and thank God, I finally moved out of my mom's house in mid-March!
I'm living with 5 other people, but pretty much I work with them all (which is sad XD). But it's a 3 story, 3 bedroom, 2 and a half bath apartment, 1700 square feet, the apartment complex has a pool, and I got to bring Tiny with me. ^^ Also, I now have 2 kittens! Got them about a month ago. Um, I'm still working at my two jobs (in case you guys didn't know, I've had two jobs since September of last year), I turned 20 years old on April 8th, oh and I got my belly button pierced yesterday! XD;; It hurt. I mean it really hurt. But, I like it. That brings my piercings to 5, where it will stay. ^^
Well, I think I'll leave this here for now. I miss you guys so much! I hope no one's forgotten about me...and will forgive me for being gone for so long... I've just, been suffering so much that, I'd lost the drive for just about anything, including much of living... Now that things are somewhat better, I remember my friends here, and had to come visit. I can't wait to hear from you guys again! <3
~Kendra
My mom got really super psychotic, basically treating me like a uber rebellious dangerous juvenile delinquent, instead of an adult, telling me that she got rid of the internet, but really was lying to me and hiding our internet router and not letting me into her bedroom so I wouldn't find out, so I had to take my laptop to Wi-Fi hotspots just to get online, relying on my battery power for how long I could be on. And that's barely scratching the surface of the tip of the iceberg of the crap she was pulling...
A love triangle formed basically. I had a potential relationship, my first ever, but it proved to be a lie, a waste of time, broken promises and false hope, so I had basically wasted 7 months of my time, ended a friendship, and dealt with stress over that, for nothing. Yeah, I've had a crapton of friendships end...all blaming me for it...when really, none of it was my fault... I had dealt with so much stress last year, god...I had lost at least 10 lbs in less than a year...that's how bad it was. I had dropped a couple pants sizes too, and I was always skinny to begin with, so I did not need to lose weight. Several people told me I looked sickly, and I'm sure I did. I was always so stressed last year...suicidal thoughts were almost always present in my head...
But! I'm still here, and thank God, I finally moved out of my mom's house in mid-March!
I'm living with 5 other people, but pretty much I work with them all (which is sad XD). But it's a 3 story, 3 bedroom, 2 and a half bath apartment, 1700 square feet, the apartment complex has a pool, and I got to bring Tiny with me. ^^ Also, I now have 2 kittens! Got them about a month ago. Um, I'm still working at my two jobs (in case you guys didn't know, I've had two jobs since September of last year), I turned 20 years old on April 8th, oh and I got my belly button pierced yesterday! XD;; It hurt. I mean it really hurt. But, I like it. That brings my piercings to 5, where it will stay. ^^
Well, I think I'll leave this here for now. I miss you guys so much! I hope no one's forgotten about me...and will forgive me for being gone for so long... I've just, been suffering so much that, I'd lost the drive for just about anything, including much of living... Now that things are somewhat better, I remember my friends here, and had to come visit. I can't wait to hear from you guys again! <3
~Kendra
