Parents!!!!!
Posted: Tue Mar 01, 2005 4:57 am
Guys............. it is hard to explain how sad my parents (more mom) make me feel sometimes and the pain they save caused me throughout my lifetime!
Do your parents upset you at times? Like for exapmle, my parents are divorced which everyone here knows by now! My mom lives in Florida with my older brother and I live in Missouri (1,300 miles apart!) with my Dad and younger brother. Neither of my parents has ANY money right now and we are just in a crazy situation. But I wonder why my parents made that choice to divorce and why my mom moved so far away! She always says that "this situation of being broke is only temporary" BUT.... it has been FIVE YEARS since they divorced and not a thing has changed!! Everything is still bad (I am wise and smart and I do realize it could be much worse and people out there have it much worse than I do! But are talknig about me right now, not them!) and I just wonder when my mom will be able to put her kids first and understand how bad our situation is. There are times when we have no food in my house and I am hungry a lot and try to eat when I can. I am a health freak and no matter how hungry I get I will not eat junk food and that is all we have because it is cheap! We have some healthy foods right now so I am fine for the moment. But I just wonder when my parents will realize that (even though I am 18) I still need guidance. And with my dad, there are certain things I just can't talk to him about because he is a guy. I just need..... a mom! I have learned from this lessons of life that I will TRY so hard to keep my marriage together and I will do everything in my power to provide my kids with everything they need and make them feel confident about themselves! And I don't ever want them to feel like they are not good enough or could never be something. My parents, at times, make me feel this way! I love them very much of course but sometimes I wish I could chnge them,...... but I cannot control their actions so I am going to learn from their mistakes! I'm not depressed or anything just sad. But it's all good because God is with me and I pray all of the time. I know in my heart that my dreams will come true and I will never stop until I get where I want to be! I am going to be an actress, I just KNOW it... I FEEL IT!! And let me say this.... I am VERY lucky to have parents with me on this earth because I know that there are kids out there with no parents! Sorry for letting it all go but thanks for listening to me guys I want to know if anyone else has the same kind of parents or problems with their parents!?
BTW........ I do have a job and I work for minimum wage (since I am 18!) by babysitting three to four days a week. On the nights I don't have dance, I work. Thanks God for dance and acting,..... if I didn't have these things I would be absolutely CRAZY!
--Lindsay
Do your parents upset you at times? Like for exapmle, my parents are divorced which everyone here knows by now! My mom lives in Florida with my older brother and I live in Missouri (1,300 miles apart!) with my Dad and younger brother. Neither of my parents has ANY money right now and we are just in a crazy situation. But I wonder why my parents made that choice to divorce and why my mom moved so far away! She always says that "this situation of being broke is only temporary" BUT.... it has been FIVE YEARS since they divorced and not a thing has changed!! Everything is still bad (I am wise and smart and I do realize it could be much worse and people out there have it much worse than I do! But are talknig about me right now, not them!) and I just wonder when my mom will be able to put her kids first and understand how bad our situation is. There are times when we have no food in my house and I am hungry a lot and try to eat when I can. I am a health freak and no matter how hungry I get I will not eat junk food and that is all we have because it is cheap! We have some healthy foods right now so I am fine for the moment. But I just wonder when my parents will realize that (even though I am 18) I still need guidance. And with my dad, there are certain things I just can't talk to him about because he is a guy. I just need..... a mom! I have learned from this lessons of life that I will TRY so hard to keep my marriage together and I will do everything in my power to provide my kids with everything they need and make them feel confident about themselves! And I don't ever want them to feel like they are not good enough or could never be something. My parents, at times, make me feel this way! I love them very much of course but sometimes I wish I could chnge them,...... but I cannot control their actions so I am going to learn from their mistakes! I'm not depressed or anything just sad. But it's all good because God is with me and I pray all of the time. I know in my heart that my dreams will come true and I will never stop until I get where I want to be! I am going to be an actress, I just KNOW it... I FEEL IT!! And let me say this.... I am VERY lucky to have parents with me on this earth because I know that there are kids out there with no parents! Sorry for letting it all go but thanks for listening to me guys I want to know if anyone else has the same kind of parents or problems with their parents!?
BTW........ I do have a job and I work for minimum wage (since I am 18!) by babysitting three to four days a week. On the nights I don't have dance, I work. Thanks God for dance and acting,..... if I didn't have these things I would be absolutely CRAZY!
--Lindsay