by bewitchedprue » Wed Apr 05, 2006 6:09 pm
I agree with Linzy about a boring life being better. Although technically I don't think you're life has been THAT boring, with the whole dad and slut thing...But seriously, things could be so much worse. I'm a lot worse off now than when I was thirteen. For instance(and by the way, i never tell ANYONE this, because i dont want people to judge me, and no one actually knows this except for one person, so this feels weird typing it here)....when i was thirteen, i was self-harming, and then a teacher found out and they called my parents and that was the absolute worst day of my life up till that point. And then i tried to kill myself, and...okay, i was going to say im glad it didnt work, but that might not be true. Things actaulyl got a lot worse after that. This person started stalking me and my two best friends, and then i got the blame for it, and for a year and a half afterwards, I got bullied because people thought it was me. But then it turned out it was one of my best friends who was stalking us. That was last september. And I have a friend who is in university now and she has tried to kill herself, and shes bulimic and im always worrying about her. I also dont want to let her down, because i dont want her to feel shes gone thru all this for nothing. But despite that, i made myself sick half an hour ago, and if she found out, i know she'd be so disappointed in me, and i cant let her down.
the point is, I do understand. at the moment im hoping life will just get better when I get older. Okay, i said a lot of stuff there that no one else knows, and now you all know it. Well, you can pm me if you want