My self esteem was the lowest it has ever been, I never left my room for four days. But it has been raised
EVer since Smudged died I though there was definatly no point in life, everyone was going to, at one point, blame me. Im better now, Im just stuck with the image of her death that is going to haunt me for the rest of my life. Now Ive got a better boyfriend than Matthew and if I got £1 for everytime he said 'I love you' I'd be a multi-millionaire! The only thing that's bothering me now is my weight, but I dieting. Im trying to go on the detox diet, just having cereal in the morning but drinking alot of water